I was more excited to buy Shonda Rhimes’ book-Year of Yes, than I am about actually reading it. So far, I have read eleven pages in two weeks. Fantastic!!!
As I read, I get distracted by my thoughts as always. ‘I have to call my sister today. Can I still go running? You haven’t written in a while, this has to be epic.’
I realize that I had barely skimmed through this page because I was distracted. And so I read it all over again. I think I need a ‘how to read a book even when there is no exam’ class.
‘Damn Shonda! You remind me of myself. I always say no. Especially to things I am uncomfortable with’.
These days, I’ve been throwing it down in the kitchen. Kay thinks it’s because I have a lot of free time. Bee thinks it’s because I am hustling for ‘the bling’, you know, so I can go on the gram and say ‘I said yes to my best friend. #FutureMrsA #DumzDumz2016′. Lmao. Don’t even get me started. I actually think it’s because I have been hungry a lot lately, and cooking is cheaper than eating out. Shrugs.
As I was prepping the onions for blending, squinting hard and trying not to cry (Ema says if you lick a pinch of salt while you are undressing the onions, you won’t feel a thing. I don’t even know why I believed her but it’s a lie), my phone rings. It’s a Skype call from Sekyen. I set my phone in a way that i can keep cooking while I talk. The conversation goes something like this:
Me: ‘Sekuzzzzzzz, long time no speak. How are you?’
Sekyen: ‘I’m fine oh. Wait you’re cooking?!!! (bursts into laughter) What are you cooking?
For the records, Sekyen has one of the most infuriating laughs. ‘It can pain’.
Me: Moi-Moi -_- 😶
Sekyen: Hayyyyy! I didn’t know you used to cook serious food like this oh. So what have you been up to?
Me: Not much, just job searching.
Now this is the part that gets me
Sekyen: (Bursts into more hysterical laughter)
Sekyen: Why do I find it hard to believe that you are looking for a job?
Me: (confused) Are you funny? So what am I supposed to be doing?
Sekyen: I just find it strange. You don’t seem like a hustler. You seem like the type to just marry a rich man and enjoy life. Don’t get me wrong. You’re smart and all but you are not a hustler.
I thought about this for the rest of the day.
I was honestly very surprised. Especially because a few days back, my friend had said something similar- ‘I think you are pretty laid back. I need to see that drive’.
It was surprising because I see myself as the ultimate career woman. The one to probably wear suits and corporate dresses for the rest of her life. The type that takes work home and doesn’t have enough time for her husband. The type that travels all over the world to attend board meeting and then unwinds over the weekend by giving one or two TED talks.
But surely, If two people say similar things in a really short time frame, then perhaps, there just might be an element of truth in it.
The worst thing I can do is lie to myself. So, I decided to do some soul searching.
I realized the following about myself:
- I dream more than I take action.
- The ratio of my subscription to the ‘If it is meant to be it will be’ and ‘If you want it, go and get it’ notion is 60% to 40%.
- My personality has evolved over the years. I think I am still an extrovert. But a little less extroverted than I was 3 years ago.
- I probably am a multipotentialite.
- Who knows a rich single footballer looking for an African damsel to wife? I fancy that ‘Footballer wife’ is not so bad after all.
So, who do you see yourself as? Who do people see you as? Is there a correlation? Negative or positive? Or perhaps zero correlation? Tell me 😉